"So many times I planned, to be much more than who I am"

There are so many times where I have said this, but despite that I will say it again. I want to be better. This time though, I really want it to follow through. Mr. Tharp showed a video today of this kid Cam, and he was MY AGE! Just to point out... that's insane. But he knew what he wanted to leave, he had such a clear view on how he wanted to live and what he wanted to leave behind. And not only that, but he followed through with this. He lived out the things that he taught, and the things that he believed. Even though he had cancer, he looked at everything as a precious gift from God. That's absolutely CRAZE to me! I mean, I personally know the way I would LIKE to live, but when it comes down to it, I get caught up in the stupid things in the world.

I want to live like this!! I want to be able to look back and see the accomplishes that I have made, and look back and be proud because I lived and showed what I believed. More importantly than this, I would be living for him. I often forget that aspect and put all the credit on myself, but i know that i am nothing without him.

I know that this won't happen over night, and I am not going to say that I am completely in the right spot to start, I know it's what I want, but for some reason I just can't wrap my mind around it. But I do know it that I am ready to work towards becoming a better person, and truly a Christian.

Thus far none of my entries have had me displaying courage in any way. I'm ready to start!!. And I'm hoping by the end there may be at least one. :]
Well until next time!!