Today in chapel, I was really opening my heart, I was really hearing what the speaker was saying and soaking it up and taking it in. Then all of a sudden, when we started praying, I was really feeling connected to God. Then out of no where. I opened my eyes, and thought to myself "Am I stupid?? I mean, look at me. I am sitting here with my eyes closed, talking to an empty gym." And it wasn't even like me thinking about it, it just happened.

I think that one of the major areas where I fall short is in prayer. For some reason, I can't get it through my head that talking in your head or outloud actually gets through to God. Every time I try to pray I just find that I don't take myself seriously.
Yes, I believe in God. Yes, I know the bible is true.
But i just can't get past my own stubborn opinions, views, and thoughts.

I think that my distrust in people has almost carried over to God.
Almost as though I see myself as greater than him, and that I don't need to come to him in prayer, because I can handle it myself.
I need to just put my life into God's hand and truly trust him.
He is greater, far greater than me.
He is my creator, and I am his child..
I just need to remember this.